We sure hope not!
Many of you have heard our wonderful news and for those who have not, God has blessed us with a baby girl. I am 18 weeks pregnant and she is due August 29, 2009. From the moment we found out we were pregnant all we ever said was "Please Lord, let her be healthy". Unfortunately, we have been told that she is not healthy. She has been diagnosed with some form of Spina Bifida. The news is very shocking and quite overwhelming. We have known for only a few days and are really trying to process what this means for our little girl and for our sweet little boys. How severely will her life be impacted? How will her disability impact the life were trying to create for our boys? We have so many questions but have so little answers right now!
We are truly trying to stay positive and draw strength from all of the love around us. The many e-mails of love and support we have received have been so special and we have cherished reading each one. However, I have avoided most "regular" communication with friends and family since Thursday (when we got the news) as I just don't seem to have the words to express my feelings right now. It also helps me to keep from crying the less I talk about the little details that we do know. Please know that I am NOT avoiding you, just trying to cop in my own way.
Tomorrow is Monday and I have no choice but to move forward. Life is going to return to some sort of normal regardless if I am ready or not. Branden goes back to work and I have two VERY active little boys that need me, I have a house to clean and dinner to make! I am a mom and I've got to keep moving for the sake of my family.
Dear God, we ask that you PLEASE give Branden and I the strength we need to get through these next 5 months. We ask that you please help us to stay positive and somehow adequately prepare ourselves for the birth of our baby girl. We ask that you please help us use this time to become the kind of parents that will be able to parent her and our boys properly for their life.
We do not know why you chose us to face this challenge but we pray and hope that you will be there every step of the way with us. God, we hope that we can handle this!